should be stronger than yours
Why?
Because just about every bike ride I go on it starts hurting so it must be gaining more muscle.
I've pretty much wasted this week away waking up around noon every day.
Had a really good ride Tuesday night just outside of Columbia. Hung on longer than I did the week before, definately pushing myself. The old heart rate went up to 193, an all-time high since I've had my heart-rate monitor. Was actually in Zone 4 (of 4) for more than an hour. Basically I was working my ass off....and though I felt like throwing up for a while I couldn't be happier with building I'm doing.
If I could make myself work like this when I'm out on the road by myself I'd probably be a lot stronger ride...but it hasn't happened yet.
and I've got no hair now. Decided to shave it off....and its treating me alright.
Lately I haven't been sure which is worse:
The super-busy times of work & school or no having anything terribly important to do (I do have plenty of stuff I could be doing...but am apparantly bad at self-motivation)
Friday, May 27, 2005
Saturday, May 21, 2005
home
kinda sucks not feeling "at home" anywhere
Part of it has to do with issues I'm having with myself right now. The kind of issues that make you go "why'd I do that" or "why do I think this way" or "how come I used to think this but now I think this"...fun stuff like that. Stuff that no-one can answer for me, but I can't seem to find an answer for either.
It seems I've changed (I feel like I have) in the past year and I'm not exactly sure why? Or maybe I kind of know why and just don't like the reason?
It has been fun hanging out with Scott though. He's giving up his projector (a pretty big deal actually seeing as how it's his baby and couldn't replace it soon if anything happened) to a cousin for the weekend.
We're about to go buy him a paintball gun and later we'll test it out at the above-ground Jaegers paintball field. Can't wait considering its been a couple years since I've played. Though about getting my own paintball gun (much better than the one I bought some 7 years ago) a little less than a year ago but didn't do it. Maybe sometime in the next year...
AND...I haven't been to church once this year. NOT ONCE. No, I'm not writing this because I'm happy about it (though it would seem if I was that unhappy about it I would have drug my ass out of bed on a Sunday and went to church), but sometimes I like to think I'm being punished for this fact. Like something bad happens or I'm just feeling not so great and I'll think, "hey, maybe if you would have went to church any of the last 20 Sunday's this wouldn't be happening."
I suppose part of me not going to church is while the concept of church makes sense to me the actual act of sitting (and standing sometimes) and listening to someone talk to a big group of people annoys me...I'm not good at sitting still.
Thats it, I've thought about writing it for a while but never did.
Thanks Erica for the message you sent about what you recently learned...it meant a lot to me.
And while in Lawrence the other week for the Collegiate Cycling National Championships I ran into Chris from camp. I couldn't remember his last name right after, remembered it, and can't think of it...but it was great to see him. My first year as a Senior High Wilderness camper he was sort of the guy to look up to in the group. He seemed to make an extra effort to get me involved (since I'm no good at jumping into activities with people I don't know) in what everyone was doing.
And he tells me that cook George is married (or at least a one-woman man with a girlfriend) and is into riding bikes. Now if only I had an e-mail address...
Aight..enough of this warm laptop sitting on my lap (I think a Men's Health article told me that was a bad thing to do), time to use up some energy...
Part of it has to do with issues I'm having with myself right now. The kind of issues that make you go "why'd I do that" or "why do I think this way" or "how come I used to think this but now I think this"...fun stuff like that. Stuff that no-one can answer for me, but I can't seem to find an answer for either.
It seems I've changed (I feel like I have) in the past year and I'm not exactly sure why? Or maybe I kind of know why and just don't like the reason?
It has been fun hanging out with Scott though. He's giving up his projector (a pretty big deal actually seeing as how it's his baby and couldn't replace it soon if anything happened) to a cousin for the weekend.
We're about to go buy him a paintball gun and later we'll test it out at the above-ground Jaegers paintball field. Can't wait considering its been a couple years since I've played. Though about getting my own paintball gun (much better than the one I bought some 7 years ago) a little less than a year ago but didn't do it. Maybe sometime in the next year...
AND...I haven't been to church once this year. NOT ONCE. No, I'm not writing this because I'm happy about it (though it would seem if I was that unhappy about it I would have drug my ass out of bed on a Sunday and went to church), but sometimes I like to think I'm being punished for this fact. Like something bad happens or I'm just feeling not so great and I'll think, "hey, maybe if you would have went to church any of the last 20 Sunday's this wouldn't be happening."
I suppose part of me not going to church is while the concept of church makes sense to me the actual act of sitting (and standing sometimes) and listening to someone talk to a big group of people annoys me...I'm not good at sitting still.
Thats it, I've thought about writing it for a while but never did.
Thanks Erica for the message you sent about what you recently learned...it meant a lot to me.
And while in Lawrence the other week for the Collegiate Cycling National Championships I ran into Chris from camp. I couldn't remember his last name right after, remembered it, and can't think of it...but it was great to see him. My first year as a Senior High Wilderness camper he was sort of the guy to look up to in the group. He seemed to make an extra effort to get me involved (since I'm no good at jumping into activities with people I don't know) in what everyone was doing.
And he tells me that cook George is married (or at least a one-woman man with a girlfriend) and is into riding bikes. Now if only I had an e-mail address...
Aight..enough of this warm laptop sitting on my lap (I think a Men's Health article told me that was a bad thing to do), time to use up some energy...
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Monday, May 16, 2005
Sad
Collegiate Cyclist
Read about this (he was still alive at the time) last Tuesday when a Wisconsin rider posted it on the MidWest Collegiate Cycling Conference (MWCCC) discussion board......
Read about this (he was still alive at the time) last Tuesday when a Wisconsin rider posted it on the MidWest Collegiate Cycling Conference (MWCCC) discussion board......
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Click me
Check out http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com/
When I'm down it helps get me happy again
It amazes me what we have locked inside us.
When I'm down it helps get me happy again
It amazes me what we have locked inside us.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Hmmm part 2
I need a certain GPA this semester to be able to get back into the education program.
I'm worried I might not have that GPA. That would mean my illustrious career here at MU is over.
I have $30. I get paid this coming Tuesday and I'll be able to pay some overdue bills. Then I basically don't get paid for a month.
What am I going to do about this? Along with trying to spend as little as money as possible I'm going to finally finish putting another computer together and try and sell it along with some other stuff I've got around here that I don't need.
What to do about the Mizzou thing? I suppose its time to look into other options.
Otherwise things are going pretty well. Work went by pretty quick this past week. Worked 11am-10pm last Tuesday and it went by quicker than my 11-5 shift on Thursday. Had a great time in Lawrence watching the Collegiate Cycling National Championships and spending some time with a friend.
Then I had a great time with Scott, Tracy and a bunch of their friends at their house. Had my first real dose of Texas Holdem Poker and loved it. Actually won the final game at somethin' like 3:45am. (And damn if all those chips didn't look great in front of me)
I must say that its kind of hard for me to play sometimes. I normally "wear my emotions on my sleeves" so if I've got a good hand it can get real hard for me to keep a straight face. Went all in a couple times (I had many more chips than them so it was a nice ploy to ruin them) with a pretty damn good hand and just about hurt my face trying not to smile or grin too much. (Scott if you read this any more...my two 5's are still your daddy).
So I've got to find some people to play with around here.
That's enough for now...time to shower and clean up this room of mine.
I'm worried I might not have that GPA. That would mean my illustrious career here at MU is over.
I have $30. I get paid this coming Tuesday and I'll be able to pay some overdue bills. Then I basically don't get paid for a month.
What am I going to do about this? Along with trying to spend as little as money as possible I'm going to finally finish putting another computer together and try and sell it along with some other stuff I've got around here that I don't need.
What to do about the Mizzou thing? I suppose its time to look into other options.
Otherwise things are going pretty well. Work went by pretty quick this past week. Worked 11am-10pm last Tuesday and it went by quicker than my 11-5 shift on Thursday. Had a great time in Lawrence watching the Collegiate Cycling National Championships and spending some time with a friend.
Then I had a great time with Scott, Tracy and a bunch of their friends at their house. Had my first real dose of Texas Holdem Poker and loved it. Actually won the final game at somethin' like 3:45am. (And damn if all those chips didn't look great in front of me)
I must say that its kind of hard for me to play sometimes. I normally "wear my emotions on my sleeves" so if I've got a good hand it can get real hard for me to keep a straight face. Went all in a couple times (I had many more chips than them so it was a nice ploy to ruin them) with a pretty damn good hand and just about hurt my face trying not to smile or grin too much. (Scott if you read this any more...my two 5's are still your daddy).
So I've got to find some people to play with around here.
That's enough for now...time to shower and clean up this room of mine.
Friday, May 06, 2005
yep
definately racin'. Not gonna be pretty, but I'm going to do it anyway. Went for a short suffer-fest a little while ago with Steve, the guy I'm riding with to STL.
I seem to remember being able to "float" with that bike, but definately not today. Threw it on the bike stand when I got back and realized that the front wheel immediately stopped every time I stopped spinning it. The front disc must have loosened up a little since I brought it back from the shop, causing the disc to rub against the brake pads the whole time I was riding earlier...kind of a relief because I know I'm slow but it shouldn't hurt as much as it did.
Put the wheel on the ground and tried to reshape the disc a little bit and it rolled a little easier. Guess I'll do the same thing in the morning before the race.
Wake up at 5am, leave Columbia with Steve around 6am. Good stuff
Depending on how much I'm hurting after the race either going home Saturday evening or Sunday to grab my car and give mom her Mother's Day present, getting to see me :)
*My heart rate monitor is interesting me now. Haven't been able to get my heart rate above 169 on the road bike in number of weeks (I must say I haven't done all that much riding though; my max heart rate the first time I tested was somethin like 185). I look down at my wrist on the ride earlier and see my BPM are at 178, and just about every time I looked at the screen it was around 170.
I've got a few theories as to why this is happening...but won't really know for sure until mid-june probably when I've got a whole lot more miles in.*
I seem to remember being able to "float" with that bike, but definately not today. Threw it on the bike stand when I got back and realized that the front wheel immediately stopped every time I stopped spinning it. The front disc must have loosened up a little since I brought it back from the shop, causing the disc to rub against the brake pads the whole time I was riding earlier...kind of a relief because I know I'm slow but it shouldn't hurt as much as it did.
Put the wheel on the ground and tried to reshape the disc a little bit and it rolled a little easier. Guess I'll do the same thing in the morning before the race.
Wake up at 5am, leave Columbia with Steve around 6am. Good stuff
Depending on how much I'm hurting after the race either going home Saturday evening or Sunday to grab my car and give mom her Mother's Day present, getting to see me :)
*My heart rate monitor is interesting me now. Haven't been able to get my heart rate above 169 on the road bike in number of weeks (I must say I haven't done all that much riding though; my max heart rate the first time I tested was somethin like 185). I look down at my wrist on the ride earlier and see my BPM are at 178, and just about every time I looked at the screen it was around 170.
I've got a few theories as to why this is happening...but won't really know for sure until mid-june probably when I've got a whole lot more miles in.*
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Racin'
looks like i might just race the mountainbike Saturday just outside of st. louis. That is of course unless I discover I already had something planned for saturday and just haven't thought of it.
I don't expect to do well, I've ridden once this week and it was slow. Only ridden the mountainbike once this year, and thats when I wrecked it and just got it back last week.
We'll see what happens
I don't expect to do well, I've ridden once this week and it was slow. Only ridden the mountainbike once this year, and thats when I wrecked it and just got it back last week.
We'll see what happens
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Chunky soup and Macs
Sitting in the Zone at a Mac eating some Campbell's Chunky soup. Doesn't get much better than that does it?
The Reflector has a nice Mac in it now also, got a G5 machine with a beautiful 23' HD monitor. Just a nice ~$3000 addition to what we've already got. Except I can give Final Cut Pro a try over the summer now (we'll see how it compares to Premiere Pro).
Today has been good...though I should be severly hurt for not having my paper done (or even close) yet. At noon i went out behind Townsend with Ted and Moon for a burger and dog to celebrate the Dean's retirement. As I told Judy I would, I didn't talk to a single higher-up there. Won't let "the man" get me down
Then I drove Ted's beast of a Vibe over to Circuit City so he could pick up a hard drive, which they were still unloading off a truck...so he was told to come back later.
A nice slowish bike ride and a shower later and I'm at the Zone with my soup, Pepsi, and Amish materials.
The Reflector has a nice Mac in it now also, got a G5 machine with a beautiful 23' HD monitor. Just a nice ~$3000 addition to what we've already got. Except I can give Final Cut Pro a try over the summer now (we'll see how it compares to Premiere Pro).
Today has been good...though I should be severly hurt for not having my paper done (or even close) yet. At noon i went out behind Townsend with Ted and Moon for a burger and dog to celebrate the Dean's retirement. As I told Judy I would, I didn't talk to a single higher-up there. Won't let "the man" get me down
Then I drove Ted's beast of a Vibe over to Circuit City so he could pick up a hard drive, which they were still unloading off a truck...so he was told to come back later.
A nice slowish bike ride and a shower later and I'm at the Zone with my soup, Pepsi, and Amish materials.
Monday, May 02, 2005
Great weekend
The weekend was great, made it back home safe last night around 9 I think. Wasn't driving the vehicle I thought I would be though. Something seems to be wrong with my clutch so its in Odessa for who knows how long to be looked at. I've got dad's beast of a grey truck. I rumbled down the highway last night at about 68mph, something I'm almost proud of considering how much self-restraint that takes for me.
Planned on staying up all night last night to work on my paper. It got to be about 2am and all I had gotten done (besides listening/watching to a couple episodes of CSI) was found a couple articles that might help me write my paper.
If I had been getting more done it would have been a good night to stay up all night. Just work 9-12 today, then I could have slept a few hours and gotten back to the paper. Now I'm pretty much screwed as far as all-nighters go. I'd basically be dooming myself tomorrow if I had one tonight. My 11-6 shift seems long enough when I'm full or rest, it pains me to think about what it would be like with zero rest.
hmmm...what to do, what to do
Planned on staying up all night last night to work on my paper. It got to be about 2am and all I had gotten done (besides listening/watching to a couple episodes of CSI) was found a couple articles that might help me write my paper.
If I had been getting more done it would have been a good night to stay up all night. Just work 9-12 today, then I could have slept a few hours and gotten back to the paper. Now I'm pretty much screwed as far as all-nighters go. I'd basically be dooming myself tomorrow if I had one tonight. My 11-6 shift seems long enough when I'm full or rest, it pains me to think about what it would be like with zero rest.
hmmm...what to do, what to do
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